On February 5, 2012, I made two posts: One of them analyzing shit that doesn't matter and the other were song lyrics. They were lyrics to the song "With Me" by Sum41. It had come out in 2007, but it was in 2012 that I felt the song. It eventually became the title of my LiveJournal. I would eventually meet Green Eyes one month after this post.

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Green Eyes and I had gotten into an argument this past week, and I was livid with him. He knew he fucked up too, and apologized to me. I accepted his apology and we made up. After taking me home from my lasik surgery, I fell asleep and woke up to a new LA Kings beanie with poofy ball on top and sweater. He's a Ducks fan himself but still gets me ( Read more... )

Some days I don't even know where to begin with my journal. There are just so many things going on that I wouldn't know where to begin. But here I am, months since my last entry, more than a year out from the last real entry. With school done though, I have to be make an effort to put down my thoughts and feelings.

I find myself still remembering ( Read more... )

I had dinner with Nicole on Thursday, about a week a half since I last saw her. Usually we go weeks or months inbetween but this was a special dinner for us though: It was our last dinner before she heads up to SF to start her year long residency. I'm glad we got to grow closer over the last couple of years since graduating from UCLA. I'm gonna ( Read more... )

I checked my email yesterday: My laptop was turned on and the erasing process was started. I guess it's official-- I'm not gonna get my laptop back. I don't think I was really holding on to any hope that I was gonna get it back. But since things have been going so well I thought a miracle was gonna happen and I was gonna get it back. I was bummed ( Read more... )

I had a dream last night. I think I was talking to Jesse Pinkman/Aaron Paul. Random. But I told this person, "I don't think I'm ever gonna see you again. I want to tell you I love you ( Read more... )

I went running with my college buddy for the first time in a while yesterday. We started talking bout Green Eyes for some reason. After all the back and forth I did about how I wanna be in a relationship with him or just wanna fuck him, he asks me, "The only question you have to ask yourself is this: Do you ever see a future with him? Do you ever ( Read more... )

For a long while after the Brent thing happened, I didn't know if I was ever gonna get over him. I was so completely infatuated with him. So completely taken by this older man. I would say I don't know what it was about him that made me throw everything away, but that would be a lie. I know exactly what it was about him that made me forget my ( Read more... )

I had a dream about him last night...probably for the first or second time since we broke up. I woke up from it around 4 in the morning but was still able to remember it when I got up for school around 6. It was a dream but still like a memory drummed up from the "Old Stuff" storage area. It was rather a stupid dream: He was arguing with me cuz I ( Read more... )

I don't normally post stuff like this but this pretty much sums it all up...


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